better than yesterday

keep holding on.

2009-12-02T17:05:00.004+08:00

Faith. A thing that I've been holding on for the past few weeks of my life. Gosh! This day is quite heavy for me but afterall i poured out all my emotions to a friend. Everything may not turned out fine in just a glimpse but at least, the burden in my heart has been lessen. *sorry for the ever bad grammar
Fear. It keeps haunting me like I can't make things turn good because of so many fears, above all is the FEAR OF REJECTION. I may not be rejected but I guess,it's my mind that says so. Moving on, a bit of that fear has been minimized. Thanks again to that friend.
Pretend. It's my way of escaping my own fears and problems which is really wrong so don't you ever try it. xD My friends often see me smiling and chatting here and there even to strangers! I'm really crazy, trust me.*crossfingers
Help. I wonder why I can still lend a hand to the needy when in fact I'm the one who needs more help. Oh anyway, helping is not a sin. Whenever, schoolmates and classmates need something or anything that I know I have to offer, I don't say "no". The thing is they don't know that behind my smiles is a very problematic mind and heart.

GOD. Without HIM, I won't be able to face all these challenges that come to me. It's really hard but I know I can surpass because I trust HIM so much.

Let my faith hold on stronger and let this fear be handled without any pretentious acts because I know I can find help in God.

it's DAISYmber!!

2009-12-01T21:31:00.002+08:00

Welcome new month! Welcome last month of the year! Welcome to a new chapter of my life!

Do you feel any changes in your surroundings?In your companions?Or even in yourself?I can feel it soooo much and I can't tell if all of those changes are really good. . On my surroundings, yay!! I can smell and feel Christmas season. Xmas tree,xmas lights, and xmas whatever things. I'm being randoooom again..

REVELATIONS101
CHANGES in colleagues.
Question # 1: What is FRIENDSHIP ?

updating questions.. what are the needed ingredients to have a "perfect" friendship?

Answer: UNDEFINED.
Friendship won't be complete without another individual. In a world where millions of humans exist, meeting a stranger that could turn into a friend is completely a MAGIC. I'm in a stage of confusion now, i'm confuse because i'm concern, i'm concern because i'm a friend, but are they concern of what will happen if they won't do any move to save their friendship?

I love them both so much because they've been with me for almost 9 years. They shared things that I never thought I could found in this life. We had many fights but thank God, we made it through but what's going on now is different. It hurts sooo much, i dunno if they know that at this point, tears are flowing from my eyes. A feeling of guilt that for the past 3 weeks, I haven't done anything. Maybe, I just want them to realize their own mistakes without me as the bridge.
There were times that they've hurt me without them noticing it. Am I being too plastic or pretentious? I don't want them to worry much at me because I know they still have problems in their own lives.
When they have any difficulty regardless of what it is, I try to shut my talkative mouth up and lend my ears to them.
I can't choose which side to go because both of them are my friends and what hurts most is when I listen to each one of them explaning, why this and that happen.
Is it the pride that rules over their hearts? Does that pride can replace the almost 9 years of friendship? Until, when will they pretend that everything's ok when their friend name DAISZ already have numerous sleepless nights thinking on what to do.
Honestly, it's my 1st time to be concern much regarding on this thing. A lesson learned for me, that changes are constant but I hope this hidden grudge between them won't last. & Question # 2 is: WHEN?

p.s
hope they'll read this.

brandnew...

2009-11-30T18:57:00.000+08:00

It's good to be back in the world of blogging!I've been very busy doing these and those stuffs, name it, from school works up to comforting a stranger!
11.30.09. Last day of November and it's a holiday here in the Philippines. Yay!! It's my grandmother's brother's 60th birthday and we went to his place. I enjoyed so much, my relatives are crazier than me. There's a videoke thing in there and i sang and sang though I still have this cough..
If you happened to be a follower of me, this is a public blog! yay!! my POV's are very open in here..
It takes a lot of time to have this layout, and i have to edit and edit. My mother wants me to sleep early last night that's why I haven't finish it. Kinda pinkish?! super pinkish?! I love pink but I love "rainbow" more. xD I'm still very random, nothing's new. *pheeew.
Let the randomness rule!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee...a super LATEST confession.
"I'm CRAZY" most of my friends already know that..ayt?!
here's a lyrics of my current LSS.. the 2nd song in my blogee playlist

RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE
Music and Lyrics: Top Suzara
Percussion: Chico Zambrano

everyday we go through different things
we may not know what tomorrow may bring
but I know that I'll be okay
baby come what may
and everyone has their share of ups and downs
never so sure of what fate will allow
but I know somehow we'll make it through
just me and you

when it's time to cry we can cry together
know that I'll be with you,
with you through whatever
when the times get rough
know that I will be right by your side
I'll be right by your side
ooh

I know that you have been hurt before
feelin' like you couldn't trust anymore
but it's always good to know that
there's someone there for you
although sometimes things may not turn out right
I'll be right here, you don't have to hide
whatever you feel inside we'll make it through,
just me and you

we'll share the laughter
and you know we'll also share the tears
and when times are bad
just know that I'll always be here...
just remember -

when it's time to cry we can cry together
know that I'll be with you,
with you through whatever
when the times get rough
know that I will be right by your side
I'll be right by your side
ooh

I'll never go away
I will be right here beside you
I'll be with you all the way
and I'll be here to stay with you
come what may...
Just remember -

when it's time to cry we can cry together
know that I'll be with you,
with you through whatever
when the times get rough
know that I will be right by your side
I'll be right by your side, ooh (repeat)

I will be right by your side
I will be right by your side
I will be right by your side
I will be right by your side (fade)

* I can relate.*kilig..my heart is jumping in joy..i'm really crazy and i'm smiling here like i-dunno..all i know is i'm happy. i got problems now but it makes me appreciate LIFE..ohh..
L-O-V-E=me + you

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